| | Current Music: | Princeton Fight Song | | Subject: | Dude | | Time: | 11:57 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/os/triangles/nostalgic.gif) nostalgic |
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| | I'm in college, and looking back on this makes me feel so silly. | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment   |
| I know I've been updating alot lately, but I swear this is the last one for a while. I'm just making up for never updating.
I leave tonight for Ecuador. I'm really pumped for God to spread hi smessage through me. Its a missions trip, but I don't know if I feel like a missionary...yet. All the prepartions that have been happening over the past couples months, and hectically this last week still don't make me feel like its actually happening. Its just so surreal that I finally have the chance to go out and do something big for my faith. I hope I can take this attitude into my walk everyday. If everyday I had the attitude that I was going to go do something big for the Kingdom, how many amazing things would I be able to do? I really hope I can take everything that I get from this experience and use it to help me and others grow. This is so cool that God has chosen me to serve others like this. I pray that my team and I bond well. This is so mind-boggling.
See you in a little over two weeks!! | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Personal Jesus | | Subject: | Tomorrow | | Time: | 11:27 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/os/triangles/tired.gif) Polo is tiring . . . |
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| I leave for my first foreign country, besides Mexico. I'm so excited to have God work through me. This is an amazing oppurtunity.
Bigger update tomorrow. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Linger - The Cranberries | | Subject: | Three Days left | | Time: | 10:37 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/os/triangles/ecstatic.gif) ecstatic |
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| Till ECUADOR!!! I'm muy excited.
I'm getting the posts in for when I'm gone.
I think I should look into matchmaking as a profession.
Or is there a profesional third wheel?
I love my life. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Wild Horses - The Rolling Stones | | Subject: | To be entirely honest | | Time: | 11:29 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/os/triangles/blah.gif) Is there a longing emoticon? |
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| I want a girlfriend. These moods never really hit me that often, and I don't care normally, but I'm just gonna be upfront, I've never had one. Ya, everyone will say how cute it is that I waited later or some bull crap like that, but I feel like I'm getting left in the dust. Like everyone is experiencing something and I'm missing out. I really don't even like that I feel that way either. I just want to slap some sense into myself, and be my usual nonchalant self, and ignore this lameness I'm feeling, but I can't. Another thing has been bugging me that never has before. When people meet me, they think I'm gay; I'm just gonna get it out there. I never ever have cared because I had the Junior High years to get over that one. I mean I have a high voice, that right there is enough. Its not something I can control, so its never bugged me, but lately I've been getting mad, especially when someone (a male) asks one of my friends to ask me out. It really sucks, and its not a normal issue. I cant believe I'm being this candid, but whatever its how I feel.
And I really wanna talk to someone, but they are all at Berf's party which I had to leave because of lame curfew. | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Hey There Delilah - Plain White T's | | Subject: | Wow | | Time: | 08:58 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/os/triangles/shocked.gif) wow |
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| "I attended a church in the suburbs and finally found a men's gathering where they talked about hunting and eating wild game, and I would sit there feeling like an idiot, pretending to be amused by stories about shooting deer, and how somebody's buddy rushed into a cave and killed a bear while it was sleeping. The truth is I was never amused. I wasn't even interested. And even though my best friend Roy and I went fishing a great deal when I was a kid, I was never that much into it. For me fishing was just something to do with a friend. I never went hunting, either, and I was not groomed for sports. I liked war movies some, but I liked human drama movies more, movies like The Breakfast Club or The Karate Kid - Movies where geeks prevailed against great social odds so they could date cheerleaders. But when all the football analogies started up at the men's group, and all the talk was about how, in our spiritual lives, we are like characters in the latest bloodfest movie, except we only get to kill people metaphorically, I just wasn't feeling it. So, I continued wondering if I was one of the guys, wondering if I was really a man. I wondered why they couldn't speak to somebody on my level. I thought, for example: Why not have a men's meeting where we talked about how Duckie got to kiss Molly Ringwald in Pretty in Pink, and how someday we were all going to kiss Molly Ringwald, metaphorically?"
-From To Own a Dragon, By Donald "Jesus" Miller
If I didn't know that was from a book , I couldv'e sworn I wrote it.
That is exactly how I feel, all the time. To a tee. Nothing can put it into words better if I tried. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| Wear sunscreen.
If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long-term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists, whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience. I will dispense this advice now.
Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth. Oh, never mind. You will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they've faded. But trust me, in 20 years, you'll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can't grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked. You are not as fat as you imagine.
Don't worry about the future. Or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble gum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind, the kind that blindside you at 4 p.m. on some idle Tuesday.
Do one thing every day that scares you.
Sing.
Don't be reckless with other people's hearts. Don't put up with people who are reckless with yours.
Floss.
Don't waste your time on jealousy. Sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind. The race is long and, in the end, it's only with yourself.
Remember compliments you receive. Forget the insults. If you succeed in doing this, tell me how.
Keep your old love letters. Throw away your old bank statements.
Stretch.
Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life. The most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives. Some of the most interesting 40-year-olds I know still don't.
Get plenty of calcium. Be kind to your knees. You'll miss them when they're gone.
Maybe you'll marry, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll have children, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll divorce at 40, maybe you'll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary. Whatever you do, don't congratulate yourself too much, or berate yourself either. Your choices are half chance. So are everybody else's.
Enjoy your body. Use it every way you can. Don't be afraid of it or of what other people think of it. It's the greatest instrument you'll ever own.
Dance, even if you have nowhere to do it but your living room.
Read the directions, even if you don't follow them.
Do not read beauty magazines. They will only make you feel ugly.
Get to know your parents. You never know when they'll be gone for good. Be nice to your siblings. They're your best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.
Understand that friends come and go, but with a precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle, because the older you get, the more you need the people who knew you when you were young.
Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard. Live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.
Travel.
Accept certain inalienable truths: Prices will rise. Politicians will philander. You, too, will get old. And when you do, you'll fantasize that when you were young, prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.
Respect your elders.
Don't expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund. Maybe you'll have a wealthy spouse. But you never know when either one might run out.
Don't mess too much with your hair or by the time you're 40 it will look 85.
Be careful whose advice you buy, but be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia. Dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it's worth.
But trust me on the sunscreen. | | comments: 5 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Take a Walk on the WIld Side - Lou Reed | | Subject: | Another year older | | Time: | 08:58 pm | | Current Mood: | ecstatic |
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| It was my 16th birthday, and it was very nice. It was a great day, and I passed my licensetest, so I'm officially a driver.
Loved the friends and family that I hung out with. | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Where'd You go - Fort Minor | | Subject: | Resolution | | Time: | 06:52 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/os/triangles/happy.gif) happy...very |
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| "what good is an army if it trains one day a week and waits to be attacked? we cant just be idle Christians whose biggest sacrifice is extra hours of sleep on sunday. We cant be Christians who dont have Christ as their focus. A good army is one that trains all the time and their entire life is the military. they go and become the movers and shakers. they go and attack first and then do the rest after. thats what we have to be. we have to attack evil and save those who dont know that they are the ones God loves. we have to be Christians that give it all to love God back because we are those who Christ loves. Thats our identity and we have to have that mindset."
I was reading this in my Ecuador Journal, and to me it was profound...again. Not to ring my own bell or anything, but when I wrote this, it really got to me. That Journal was one of the best things that has happened to me. I dont even write about what has happened to me that day necessarily. Its just a place to put my thoughts on God, the trip, my life, my relationships whatever. Its really helped me a lot.
Now to the title of the post, resolution. I harbor some resentment for a person at school, and it really made everything they did seem annoying to me, and I couldn't get past it. Everything they did bugged me and i tried to stay far away. I didn't say anything about my frustration to them because it wouldn't do any good. But after Mikes sermon on wednesday, i realized how stupid I was, and I apologized to the person, and I got their perspective and it really cleared my (as corny as this sounds) soul. It felt so good to get rid of that burden and I really loved having a conversation with them. Its like restoring a friendship, and discovering gold. I think I might have one more restoration though. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Scratch - Kendall Tayne | | Time: | 11:21 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/os/triangles/sad.gif) sad |
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| I wish I had a best friend.
My dog died...
that's all i have to say about that. | | comments: 5 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Where does the good go? Tegan and Sara | | Subject: | The end of an era... | | Time: | 11:19 pm | | Current Mood: | sad |
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| | Its the end of an era for my Ipod, after losing my music colletion months ago, I finally started fresh with the new music I had built up. there are probably some songs I missed and will never hear again, but my new stuff is good too. Its a sad sad day. | | comments: 7 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | the hum of the computer | | Subject: | ugh | | Time: | 06:21 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/os/triangles/disappointed.gif) disappointed |
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| | I'm disapointed in my self majorlly, it makes me sad, and depressed, and lazy which is no good for finals. Ive been trying to do this same question for two hours. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Its cool we can still be friends | | Subject: | Ugh! | | Time: | 07:49 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/os/triangles/aggravated.gif) aggravated |
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| Today has been a bad day. I've want to scream more than any other day ever. Nothing horrible just extreemly aggravating and frustrating. Ugh! I want to take a bath and maybe read and go to bed early, but we are watching home videos and my dad is in a pissy mood, and my brother is trying to be all big brotherly after 16 years of being distant.. way distant, and ts just more annoying than anything. Whatever.
Edit:
Watching home videos of you as a baby helps a lot. | | comments: 7 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Candle in the Wind (Princess Diana Version) England's Rose | | Subject: | Life is electrified. | | Time: | 09:34 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/os/triangles/excited.gif) excited |
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| Tonight was incredibly awesome. I was so excited about life after. I'm just very happy now. Its exciting to be this excited. Lol. Prayer group was just amazing it was CIY all over again. I doing well in everything. All the stuff that I was struggling with I'm not anymore, well I still am, but I'm incredibly better. I'm just happy. Its great.
Loveliness we've lost;
These empty days without your smile.
This torch we'll always carry
For our nation's golden child.
And even though we try,
The truth brings us to tears;
All our words cannot express
The joy you brought us through the years.
And it seems to me you lived your life
Like a candle in the wind:
Never fading with the sunset
When the rain set in.
And your footsteps will always fall here,
Along England's greenest hills;
Your candle's burned out long before
Your legend ever will.
I want a tribute badly. When I die I want to have impacted someone so much that they feel these things for me. It doesn't have to be famous, I just want to have someone love me that much. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| January
1. did you have a new year's resolution this year?
-No
2. if so, did you go through with it?
-N/A
3. does it snow where you live?
-Never ever
4. do you like hot chocolate?
-Very much so
5. have you ever been to times square to watch the ball drop?
-No, its something i want to do once though
6. do you or anyone you know have a birthday in this month?
-Natalie Castillo, only one i can think of, (cuz it was the other day)
February
1. did you have a valentine last year?
-No
2. did you WANT a valentine?
-Who doesn't? Of course I do
3. did you play in the snow?
-What snow?
4. do you have february break?
-What?!
5. when you were little, did you buy valentines for your whole class?
-Heck yes! You had to or risk social outcast!
6. do you or anyone you know have a birthday in this month?
-My Padre
March
1. are you Irish?
-Probably, Have you seen my mom? Shes white white.
2. do you wear green on St. Patty's Day?
-Yes, its cuz i have enough green to wear all year
3. do you believe in leprechauns, four leaf clovers and all that stuff?
-Not really
4. do you or anyone you know have a birthday in this month?
-My brohah, Tristan
April
1. do you like the rain?
-O man like no other
2. do you celebrate easter?
-Yes
3. do you get tons of candy on easter?
-Not anymore
4. Have you ever danced or kissed in the rain?
-Danced in the rain at 4 in the morning. mmm. never kissed
5. do you believe in the easter bunny?
-Nah
6. do you or anyone you know have a birthday in this month?
- None that I can think of.
May
1. what's your favorite kind of flower?
-Sunflower, its so earthy
2. do you love your mommy?
-Why yes i do
3. do you like the spring?
-It is enjoyable, but kinda hot in socal
4. finish the phrase; APRIL SHOWERS:
-brings may flowers, come on thats accepted fact.
5. what would you think of as a spring color?
-Pink, Lavendar. Mauve. Chatruse. lol
6. do you or anyone you know have a birthday in this month?
-Me! Paddy and Meggy.
June
1. what's the last grade you graduated from?
-9th
2. what day did/do you graduate school?
-June 7th?, 2008
3. do you love your daddy?
-Eh, i suppose
4. do you or anyone you know have a birthday in this month?
-Grandma
July
1. do you have any special occasions on 4th of july?
-I think i was in Cambria for the 9th annual Pinedorado (cheestastic)
2. would you consider yourself patriotic?
-Yes.
3. do you go on any vacations during this month?
-Hawaii 10th annual this year
4. ever gotten really drunk on 4th of july?
-Nope
5. do you or anyone you know have a birthday in this month?
-My momma
August
1. do you do anything special to end off your summer?
-Hung out as much as possible with everyone
2. does school start during this month?
-nope
3. do you go swimming a lot in the summer?
-I go swimming a lot all year round, its called water polo.
4. do you like swimming?
-Its better than any other sport
5. do you go to the beach a lot?
-Not so much, its kinda gross. Hawaii on the other hand
6. do you or anyone you know have a birthday in this month?
-Uncle and cousin
September
1. does school start during this month?
-Yes
2. do you like school?
-Its something to keep me occupied
4. who's your favorite teacher?
-Currently, Sangalang, Westerman, O'Dowd, Stewart. Of all time add, Orlinsky and Oehlsclager-Knox.
5. do you like fall better than summer?
-Yes, its freaking scorching in summer. Im bakin like a roasted cheeser
6. do you or anyone you know have a birthday in this month?
-Nah
October
1. what was your craziest halloween costume ever?
-M&M
2. do you still go trick or treating?
-I never have in my life
3. what's your favorite candy?
-Skittles
4. what are you gonna be this year?
-I have no idea. I liked Doctor this year.
5. do you or anyone you know have a birthday in this month?
-Nope
November
1. who's house do you usually go to for thanksgiving?
-It was mine forever, but now Arizona to my great grandpas (he might not be here much longer)
2. do you like stuffing?
-Not particularly
3. what are you thankful for?
-Jesus, friends, life.
4. name everyone who's at your family dinners?
-Grandma, Papa, Tristan, Mom, Dad, Me, Great Garland.
5. do you or anyone you know have a birthday in this month?
-Nope
December
1. do you celebrate christmas?
-Yes. Very much so
2. hannukah?
-No
3. do you get presents?
-Yes.
4. what's your favorite present you ever got?
-Ipod was pretty great. My grandma hand knitted me a beanie, and I loved it.
5. do you like cold weather?
-I do, cuz it isnt deathly cold here. and I can wear more.its nice
6. do you or anyone you know have a birthday in this month?
-Jay Peeeee, Tracy, Jesus. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| A Yo-Yo : Best white elephant gift ever.
Hours of enetertainment for a string and two pieces of plastic. I've mastered getting it down and back up again with not leftover string. What next? Any ideas? What tricks do you wanna see? | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | We used to be Friends - The Dandy Warhols | | Subject: | Courtesy de Paddyman | | Time: | 05:35 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/os/triangles/contemplative.gif) contemplative |
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| 1. What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before?
First Kiss (which I'm not happy about) Drive a Car, Go to CIF and other stuff I'm sure
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
No (didn't make any) and no (never do)
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Not that I can think of. Me and Meggy both got pregnant though.
4. Did anyone close to you die?
I've never had anyone close to me die.
5. What countries did you visit?
Mexico. England (via their territory in Hawaii)
6. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005?
a girlfriend (hey i'm only being honest)
7. What date from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
July 24 - 28. CIY
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
A 4.67 GPA. Making it to CIF for Water Polo and Finals for swim. Maturing isn't a tanigible achievement but its the one I value the most
9. What was your biggest failure?
Failing to finish what I set out to do.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Nothing big.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
My Rainbows
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Loads of people. Overall, I'd say Jen Preda for being there for everyone and trying new stuff (Swim, Polo, Leadership :), etc...)
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Christians who weren't really Christians or were horrible and gave the rest of us a bad name.
14. Where did most of your money go?
Clothes
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
CIF, CIY
16. What song will always remind you of 2005?
This is the First Day of my Life, Bright Eyes, anything Rocket Summer. How Great is Our God, definitely
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. are you happier or sadder? Happier
ii. thinner or fatter? Definitely thinner
iii. richer or poorer? Me personally, richer. Family, I'm not sure. I think poorer.
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Getting out there (Socially and Physically)
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Speaking without thinking.
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
I spent it with my family and reading Wicked. And playing board games (they are big on board games)
21. Did you fall in love in 2005?
No.
22. This question appears to be missing from the original survey.
23. How many one-night stands?
None.
24. What was your favorite TV program?
Grey's Anatomy, Veronica Mars
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
No. I don't think I hate anyone. I get annoyed or frustrated but I don't hate them.
26. What was the best book you read?
Searching for God Knows What. It was excellent. Close Behind, Wicked, Harry Potter and Perks of Being a Wallflower.
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Bright Eyes, Rocket Summer, Rilo Kiley
28. What did you want and get?
Knowledge, Maturity (more of it, still got stuff to learn)
29. What did you want and not get?
I could give you two Who's not what's
30. What was your favorite film of this year?
Garden State, Star Wars III, Forest Gump.
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
15, Had a party with people (not as many as I would have liked.)
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Well, I'd rather not say.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005?
Stuff that I love, doesn't matter what store its from whether its in or out, if I liked it I wore it.
34. What kept you sane?
God, Jen Preda, Tommy, Paddy, Meggy, Jillian, ( a few people that made me insane.)
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Natalie Portman, and more recently Anna Popplewell.
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
Abortion, Why everything is Bush's fault, the way Christians are portrayed and what Christianity is truly about (not necessarily political)
37. Who did you miss?
No one
38. Who was the best new person you met?
Meggy Meggy Meggy Mcgee.
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005?
Love is more important, no matter who somebody is they aren't any worse than me. (Combination of Searching For God Knows What and learning from other's ignorance.)
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
"This is the First Day of my life"
"Sometimes you're further than the moon, sometimes your closer than my skin."
"The Drunk kids, the Catholics, they're all just the same. They're watching, they're waiting hopin to be saved."
This year was great, I mean of course there was some stuff I would be happier without having done, and happier if I had done some things, but I really thought this year changed me for the better, and that I've grown and I'm starting to think broader not just about myself and now but about others and the future. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
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